On March 16th,
2013, my life completely changed. It was a cold windy night and I was exhausted
from a long day at school and cheerleading practice that I decided an early
nights sleep would benefit me. Around 10 PM I shut my eyes and drifted into
what I thought would be a great nights sleep. About 4 hours later I awoke with
a jolt realizing that the entire left side of my body was not responsive. I was
paralyzed from my left cheek to my left foot and I was completely unaware of
what was happening. As I attempted to drag myself out of bed I had to
physically pull my left arm and left leg to move from any still position. I
didn’t care that it was in the middle of the night I was panicked so I decided
to call out to my mom. My voice trembled and began to yell but the only thing
that came out was pure gibberish. No words, no normal sentences, random sounds
that could not be described as words even though I wanted them to be. My mom
came running in to see what was wrong but I had no ability to describe to her
what was happening. I started to cry, scared that I might be having a stroke.
She understood that I was well aware of the fact that I was not okay. I knew
what I wanted to say but my body would not form the words. After about five
minutes of my words being slurred and the inability to move my limbs, I began
to hurl. My puking did not stop for hours but my limbs began to come back into
motion. At that moment, my parents decided I needed urgent medical care. My mom
tossed me clothes to put on and my hands held them as if they had never seen a
shirt before. My brain was not knowledgeable about what to do with these items.
As we walked to the car, my speech slowly began to come back and I was able to
explain to my mom what I was feeling. As this seemed to get better, my eyesight
and hearing slowly started to drift away. The side affects were temporary but I
thought that I would be blind and deaf forever. About five minutes later I was
fully able to see and my hearing was back to normal but an explosive pain
within my brain began. I have never had such traumatizing head pain in my
entire life and I will never be able to shake the pain I felt that night. I
wound up in the hospital for about a week as these symptoms kept reoccurring.
No amount of morphine would take away the pain I was feeling in my head and no
medicine would stop the vomit.
This was
the night that I realized I was a prime patient for hemiplegic migraines. Hemiplegic
migraines are immensely painful headaches that cause stroke like symptoms. This
experience was extremely life changing for me. I thought my life was over, or
at least completely changed from that point on. It was the second time in my
life that I thought I would never be okay again. I think this experience makes
me worthy of a profile because it truly changed the way I look at life. I appreciate
so much of what I didn’t before because I realized how fragile everything is. It
takes years to build and create but only a second to destroy it all. This
experience still gives me goose bumps when I think about the pain and suffering
that I felt throughout that point in my life. It was one of the scariest things
I have gone through, but made me the strong individual I am today.
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